Hello readers. It's been so long since I log in to check on my blog.
I know I may have promised that I'll definitely update my blog after my Melbourne trip last month.. Well, I'm sorry to say this, but I don't think my readers should be expecting any posts from me anymore. Well, let's just say, I will not blog as long as SPM is not over :) I just feel that as long as my exams are not entirely over, there's nothing much that I can blog about other than the amount of stress that I'm dealing with these days. It's really crazy. I have so much things on my plate now to handle.. I don't even know whether I can take this anymore. It's insane! I have my driving test on this Monday, and the next whole week will be my Short&Sweet performance at KLPac. Thank God it's not during the 2nd week! If not, I'll be even stressed out by then since my Trial 2 starts on the 11th.
Anyway, I just miss blogging so much. I remember last time how often I used to blog and write about my feelings, my school days, and everything.. However, these days, I can't even find time for blogging. Last month, I was so happy over the fact that my ballet Advanced 1 RAD exam is over. And the month before, I was even happier when I'm finally DONE once and for all with my Grade 8 ABRSM Piano exam. And now, I'm bound to face something bigger, and more important than these exams. Which is my SPM. I'm actually quite scared you know. I realized that everything is happening so fast. Too fast that I don't even know whether I'm wasting time or not. Whether I'm using my time wisely; whether or not I'm way behind my revision for SPM. There are just so many uncertainties. I just hope that God will give me the guidance and answer to my questions. He is all I need now.
I don't need any extra worries about drama's in school, or whatever it is. I hope I'll give my 100% concentration in my studies after I'm done with my Short&Sweet performance. I really can't afford to spend anymore time on any activities other than my studies. Some of you may think it's silly how SPM can affect me.. Well I'm telling you, I've began my revision for SPM already.. But somehow, I don't know why it just doesn't seemed to be as intensive as I've pictured. I want to see myself completely prepared for every subjects in SPM. But right now, what I'm doing just doesn't look enough or maybe satisfying for me. Perhaps this is a wake up call for me that I shall not waste anymore time on things that do not benefit me at all. Take watching TV, using the computer to check Facebook, taking long naps and eating snacks for example.
On the other hand, I've also realized something. As SPM is approaching, which leaves me & the rest of the SPM candidates about 40 more days to go before we face the music, our high school's life is also yet to come to an end. I really don't know how I will react later on to the idea of graduating from high school, especially Sri KDU. The school that has brought so many wonderful people and friends to my life :) I still remember last time how much I wanted to graduate from high school so that I can leave Malaysia as soon as possible to further my studies because the thought of going overseas to study is just so breathtaking. But now, when that is actually happening already, I feel really heavy hearted to leave high school. There are just so much great memories that I have of my high school life and I'm just not ready to leave everything once and for all and start another new college life in UK next year. I truly hope that another few weeks of my high school life in KDU will be amazing as always. :) I love the people that never fails to put on a smile on my face :)
Gosh, this is just getting tooo mushyy and all. Teehee. I think I shall stop here because if I don't, I'll just go on, and on & on until tomorrow.. I have toooo many things to tell you all. But I think I shall leave those for another time, right after SPM, which will be on the 15th for me! :)
Life is never always of bed and roses.
XOXO,
krystal ho.
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