Sometimes, things in life are so unpredictable. One moment, you are happily surrounded by people whom you love and care for you; another moment, they are gone, just like that. Well, what I'm basically trying to say is there are so many things in life which will occur at anytime in anywhere that are not up to your predictions or expectations. So, just be contented with what you have all the time, and cherish the love ones you have around you. Do not regret; as once they are gone, it would then be too late to feel remorseful because there's just nothing that you could do but keep blaming and questioning yourself. "Why didn't I treat him/her better or showed more care before this?" Thus, instead of having to do something like that, why not just start cherishing everything around you? Live every single day without regrets and try not to neglect those who tend to shower love and care for you.
Actually, the reason why I'm talking about this is because few weeks ago, I lost someone whom I really look up to, and respect; someone who was so strong that never gave up no matter how difficult a situation was thrown to him, or he had to deal with; someone who never once complain about the fate he had; and finally he was someone whom I truly, truly loved even though I must admit, I haven't been showering him with adequate love from the beginning. However, one honest point that I make here is, he was truly someone whom showed determination, the spirit and strength of a true fighter. Although I wasn't there to witness all these with my own eyes, but deep in my heart, I know how much energy and strength he has put up to go through the battle. Although in the end, he lost, but nothing's ever going to change the fact that he was, indeed, a true fighter. I love you Ah Kung. I hope that you have found a place close to home in heaven.
Apart from all these, I've got to admit that I've indeed gone through quite a hectic and mixed up week. It wasn't the best time to have to sit for tests, and be in class, because there were just too much to digest, so much to think, and so much to absorb in SO little time. Oh well, I guess that's what they call, life. Isn't it? I supposed life wouldn't be called as life it weren't for the ups & downs it has, just like a rollercoaster. It's really going to take me a while to actually accept the truth. Because every once in a while, I would always think about this to myself: "Have I been good so far? Have I ever done anything proud for him to remember? Have I been one of the best-behaved granddaugther that he had so far?" There are just so many queries that I have that keeps playing through my mind over & over again. I just can't stop thinking the fact that I've lost someone that close to me. It's just too painful and heartbreaking to think about. However, I'm going to certainly try to live the rest of my days without any uncertainties from now onwards. I have to live my life without the need of feeling worried or uncertain about my behaviour, and so on from today. I don't want to go through the same feeling that I just went through ever again. It wouldn't be something great that I would want to remember.
Anyway, I think this post of mine for now is a bit depressing. But looking on the brighter side, now that everything has almost settled, I should stop thinking and worrying about these. I should in fact, put all these behind of me, and start anew, and not think about it anymore. :) By the way, do you know who's big day is coming soon? :)
XO
Krystal.
Actually, the reason why I'm talking about this is because few weeks ago, I lost someone whom I really look up to, and respect; someone who was so strong that never gave up no matter how difficult a situation was thrown to him, or he had to deal with; someone who never once complain about the fate he had; and finally he was someone whom I truly, truly loved even though I must admit, I haven't been showering him with adequate love from the beginning. However, one honest point that I make here is, he was truly someone whom showed determination, the spirit and strength of a true fighter. Although I wasn't there to witness all these with my own eyes, but deep in my heart, I know how much energy and strength he has put up to go through the battle. Although in the end, he lost, but nothing's ever going to change the fact that he was, indeed, a true fighter. I love you Ah Kung. I hope that you have found a place close to home in heaven.
Apart from all these, I've got to admit that I've indeed gone through quite a hectic and mixed up week. It wasn't the best time to have to sit for tests, and be in class, because there were just too much to digest, so much to think, and so much to absorb in SO little time. Oh well, I guess that's what they call, life. Isn't it? I supposed life wouldn't be called as life it weren't for the ups & downs it has, just like a rollercoaster. It's really going to take me a while to actually accept the truth. Because every once in a while, I would always think about this to myself: "Have I been good so far? Have I ever done anything proud for him to remember? Have I been one of the best-behaved granddaugther that he had so far?" There are just so many queries that I have that keeps playing through my mind over & over again. I just can't stop thinking the fact that I've lost someone that close to me. It's just too painful and heartbreaking to think about. However, I'm going to certainly try to live the rest of my days without any uncertainties from now onwards. I have to live my life without the need of feeling worried or uncertain about my behaviour, and so on from today. I don't want to go through the same feeling that I just went through ever again. It wouldn't be something great that I would want to remember.
Anyway, I think this post of mine for now is a bit depressing. But looking on the brighter side, now that everything has almost settled, I should stop thinking and worrying about these. I should in fact, put all these behind of me, and start anew, and not think about it anymore. :) By the way, do you know who's big day is coming soon? :)
XO
Krystal.
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