Decided to check-in on my blog even though I'm still not quite close to complete for one particular deadline given by my project supervisor, which is due tomorrow. Oh well, I guess the first week of a new semester just didn't go as productive as I thought.
Just another reminder, it's already the second new month of the year! FEBRUARY! Please be good to me. Not only today is a new month, it's also a special day for my elder brother, Kendrick! Even though we don't often speak to one another, but I would very much like him to know that things will always remain the same between us.. and I'm truly grateful for all he's done for us as our eldest brother <333
Aside from that, I realised that I've been gaining unnecessary stress, and it's a kind of feeling that I don't usually get.. Not until I came back this year after my Christmas break. I'm not certain about it but I'm starting to doubt my capability in handling stress/workload and life in general.. Could it be due to the weather recently? It's honestly my first time spending this awfully cold season without the puggy around (unlike last year's).. I just want to get rid of this feeling, badly. It's starting to make me feel too hopeless, demotivated and it slows down my productivity rate as a whole. I want to outgrow this desperately, but I need to sort out my feelings, emotions and everything else first. Honestly, I hardly say this, nor have you ever seen me typing it on any social platform before, but I genuinely miss home. The sunshine. Trillion. My mum. Dad. My tiny little bed & everything else that defines home. I try to occupy most of my time by hitting the gym ever since the new semester has started and also by consistently keeping up with my new course modules, however, it just seemed that these aren't working at all.. I feel that this method of keeping myself busy just so that I will not think about anything that makes me miss home/him/or whatever is not as effective as it used to be anymore (last semester).
Can't think of anything else right now besides secretly praying that CNY approaches sooner so that I can finally see my babysis again <3 Nothing beats the feeling of having one of your family members around you during this terribly cold season.
I hope that in the next few days, what I just blogged about today, my feelings, will just sweep through with time & that I will definitely feel better. Again, I need to remind myself that this is my final year for my undergraduate degree and I do not have any time to waste in feeling this hopeless. So, I guess all I can do now is pray for a great week ahead and for my mind to be focused but nothing else.
That's all for now. Goodnight and have a blessed week guys!
✗
KrystalH
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