"Sometimes, it takes a really long time for you to realise how dearly someone is to you until you lose them. It is not something new that people tend to take things for granted in life; whether it is the privilege to enjoy certain things or possessions we have, and also the companion of the people that we love and matter around us. This, I would say happens to most of us, including myself, and I believe that this realisation only triggers when we suddenly learn about the loss of something or someone so precious then. "
So many things recently that have happened made me realised the importance of appreciating every single person and things around you that you're blessed with. One of them that have left such great impact towards me is the recent passing of my piano teacher since I was as young as 8.
Words can't be used to describe the feelings that I have towards this news and reality, but one thing for sure is that, I secretly do hope that I can have the ability to turn back time for just one moment: back to the time before her passing, where I still had the chance to meet her for one last time before having to wish my goodbyes and all for good.
I know that this is a very selfish way of thinking, but I somehow blame myself for not being a student that visits an ex-teacher who is closed to me consistently when I return back to Malaysia from the UK for every holiday. All I remember in carrying out such visits was during my first summer holiday when I was still in Concord College then. Regrets is all that I have now. I should have actually made the visit a regular thing every year whenever I come back for holidays.
But what difference could it do now?
My piano teacher who wasn't just a respected teacher to me but also a friend whom I can always talk to and rant my problems/feelings just isn't here anymore. *sobs*
Therefore, if I have given the extra effort to make an annual visit to her place during every holiday, at least, I wouldn't learn about such devastating news in a very unprepared and shocking manner. I could have been able to prepare myself and said the things that I want to say to her before she's gone.
This is why I say, we should seize the opportunity and time that we have each day to catch-up or even do something nice with/to those who matter in our lives as a gesture to show that we really appreciate their presence and things that they've done for us so far. Because by doing this, no matter what comes around in future, whether it is good or bad or even an unpredictable catastrophe that suddenly take place, we ultimately know that deep inside, we've done all we ever could in making the life of someone more meaningful with our presence. Thus, there wouldn't be any regrets or things that we have to feel remorse about while we or they're gone.
I know it's a bit depressing and pessimistic when we talk about these kind of things, but I honestly believe that if we don't think about them and the what-ifs in life, we would eventually be the one at loss. Because at the end of the day, we have to be honest to ourselves that in today's world, a lot of things is well beyond our control. When it happens to us, we may not even have the time to think or act according to the situation.
In short, appreciate everything that you're blessed with in life now, and don't ever leave anyone behind or forget about them, especially those who once mattered dearly to you or even those that previously sacrificed a lot for you. Life is short and it's filled with endless unforeseeable events; cherish your loved ones and elderly while they are still around always.
Till then,
✗
KrystalH
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